After 4 days of being stuck under the sweltering sun at town she is finally off tml. Why am i complaining?? coz i am stuck there with her half the time and i miss spending our quality time together.

Its been rainy lately. Cant even go for a swim in the pool. Damn. And i miss my friends sigh.

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I spent my monday in sentosa. Its been ages since i've been to chill with the sun, sand and the sea. Almost forgot how enjoyable it felt. I wana do that again!!

ok i'm like having a mental block here... never mind i'll blog more bout other stuff later but this blog entry is meant for you. You know who you are.

After reading your blog about your brother and you burning in hell because you are gay and have tatoos and stuff like that are all bull. I am christian. Not a good one though. I dont go to church every sunday, i cant memorise the bible, but i know he is there around me. I am gay, i love women, i love my tattoo and i'm thinking of getting another. Does it mean i'm gona rot and burn in hell forever when i die?
I'm not gona preach, i just want you to know that God doesnt judge. He made you who you are and he loves you for who you are. But most importantly, my dear girl... you have to fnd peace from within yourself. You need to make peace and forgive yourself before anything.

No one can convert you, nor convince you to accept christ. As much as your brother loves you and wants you to be well, the acceptance comes from within. So i think he will understand in time to come. But i was touched by what he did u know. Take the frist step and sit him down. What you find out might actually surprise you.

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I recieved this msg today while i was still half asleep and it made me sit up in shock.

" Hey, i'm sitting at the A&E department at TTSH right now. My conditionshave apparently went downhill."

then no reply after that... after countless smses still no reply.

I started to get freaked. You know how you always said you would make sure i'll have loads of food during your funeral and that i'll have a table to play majhong... well i was afraid that it would really happen. Yes i got paranoid. It doesnt help when i have a very vivd active imagination. =p

Glad u are more or less ok. *heaves a sigh of relief*

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Someone wrote an entry on her blog and i like this phrase the most

"Healing is about Living and Lying.
Living is Finding and Fucking
So as you're lucky,
You should find whatever it is.


..... so true... so true.

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fondue... orgasmic!!


at the short moments while eating. I thought i died and went to heaven. damn good

anddddd.............

i just recieved good news! one of my best friends getting married on 07.08.09 nice date! so excited.

lastly.......

my bday's tml!! am old........ sigh

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time for updates... my blog growing spiderwebs already. I got a new hp!! Nokia E65 she bought it for me. So sweet we both got the same phones only different colour. I took the more manly Mocha colour while she took the super gay Red colour rofl. Good phone though. Has wifi, adobe reader and loads of stuff. slim too!

I have this crazy pnk fetish. I love everything pink. and its the sweet baby pink. I used to detest pink. Goodness. I even bought this satin pink halter top. Since when do i wear pink? but oh well whatever... its dirt cheap and nice. Pink laptop anyone? Bday prezzie? lol

My bdae's coming up... this sat. Then it will be the 5th Oct. What to get u for ur bday prezzie? what to wear for ur dinner?


*you make me wana la la...

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I did it!! (no not whatever corrupted things u guys must be thinking.)

I finally managed to change my damn blogskin. and since i have a fetish for anything pink nowadays, i have a pink oh so sweet blogskin. Yes feel free to gag. But i am damn proud of myself. Its complete with a tagboard and links and whatnots. satisfied. pleased.

I miss my friends... waiting for the 22nd so we can go eat steamboat.

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I got kinda pissed last night. Coincidently i read something on someone's blog today which made me think. People listen... but they listen for various reasons. Some listen cause they genuinely care... some listen cause they feel obligated... some listen to pass judgement and comments... some listen to put you down... and i have learnt something while musing over this. I have learnt to filter and sort out people like that. Call it avoiding reality or escaping facts but for the sake of my own mental health, i have decided to ignore people like that. Nobody has the right to judge me. You havent been through what i have been through so DONT JUDGE.

ok there... i've vented. I'm a girl after all. A normal emotional girl. Though i may not talk or act vunerable, i actually am. Sometimes words do kill me and i cry myself to bed. So take heed of my feelings for i am but a girl.

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Someone wrote this for me in her blog...

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Each time you laid and shut your weary eyes

You're doing it again.That thing where you fall for her

For that same despicable trick, for that same bitch numerous times over again. And every time you are left alone in the cold, in the dark to gather what's little that's left of you

I stood watching, helpless and angry,

I could only pray that your heart remembers how to mend, to put things back, to go on again.

You said you're sorry but I can't be sure.

If it was really so or if it was for you didn't inflict pain enough,

On yourself and everyone around

It's all smoke and mirrors.

You promise me you wouldn't do it again,

You promised me you would protect your heart

But you never did.

You never understood what I wanted for you

And I've told you, infinite times, picking the right circumstances, the right place.

There were times I've turned my back and each time I did, I regretted.

You're my friend, someone who have shared countless nights just talking with

You're my friend, someone I let in on my biggest pain

And you're dying, right in front of me, which choices you made, with paths you walked on.

I know I can't ask

I know I can't demand

I'm not you, this is not my life but if I were you, i'll quit. Tara used to tell me 'we can do this, you're strong, strong like the Amazon' and it brought a smile. She never ceases to amaze me.

So now I'm telling you the same thing, you're strong, you don't have to do this. You don't have to lead such a wrecked life like I do.

Often, there are words I can't say, emotions I can't reveal

And often time, I wish I did.

If words could just save you.

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I am struck dumb. loads of stuff i wana say but i do not know how to express myself.
But i promise girl... i will get her out of my system.
But u have to promise me to be strong too... coz u are slowly dying as well and it has been so long.

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