* Warning! Long post ahead.*

Its been a very long and tiring 2 days that feel like an eternity.
Mentally, emotionally and physically draining.
damn...

I'm in such a mix of emotions i'm lacking of words in the dictionary to describe the feeling.
This is a damn bloody good example of why i bloody am lesbian. Now i thank the heavens that i am different and i do not have a slimmest slightest chance to get pregnant.

It is soooo drama its like a scene from some cheesy daytime soap people watch.

Started when my bro's gf got sent back to malaysia when she got fired and her WP expired. So she was unable to come back to SG for a couple of weeks and my bloody itchy brother decides that she is a pain in his ass and wants to dump her.
She appeared at my house on Monday and let herself into my house and took MY MOTHER'S FAV chopper and put it in my bro's room. My maid saw and called my mother who in turn called my bro. So both my mum and my bro rushed back to meet the gf. Which lead to an arguement between my bro and her. In the midst of the quarrel she whipped out the chopper and threatened to slash her wrists. My brother wrestled with her while my mother tried to take the chopper away.
When the chopper was safely removed the was in tears and begged my mother to tell my brother not to leave her and blah blah... my hot headed brother got pissed again.
She locked herself up in the room, broke his very expensive precious perfume bottle and tried to slit her throat while my brother kicked the door down and my mother called my dad and then called the police.
The police came, bundled her and took her away.

All this happened while i was at work. Damn damn damn. anyways....

We changed the padlock worried that the might come back and murder all of us in the middle of the night. But she came back... lurking around in the void deck. My brother, me and Gary went down to talk to her. Luckily one of my bro's friend is with her.
She showed us her reports, she claims my brother assulted her. NEVERMIND.... the biggest blow is when we saw she was 3 months pregnant. I got so speechless all i could do was sit there and gasp for breath. (this is not the first time my bro got a girl pregnant. he now has a 1 year old daughter somewhere in Singapore) So i asked her what she wants. She wants my bro to marry her and she wants to keep the baby. But hellooo... my bro is only 19 in NS earning like 400 a month? She is jobless with no home. I told her no way. She has to either abort or give the baby away. Cannot get married. But i quote her "I will not let him go so easily." "He has to marry me or i will charge him for rape/molest."
Gary woke my mother up and we all were debating till 4am in the morning.
Next day woke up at 10 to bring her to KK hospital and a gyne to book for abortion.
The doc scanned her tummy and when i say the baby, it brought tears to my eyes. Coz it waved at me. I could see its tiny head, chest, heart and hands.Sigh. But outcome was that she cannot abort in SG coz no WP. So now the situation is pending.

Some people want babies but no matter how they try, no babies, my bloody brother just want sex pop 2 babies out. 1 in a year. Stupid asshole. My heart goes out to his gf and the baby. I want babies too!!

This is a lesson learnt. WEAR CONDOMS!

*Thank goodness i'm lesbian.* =p

- Fairy Games -

I've decided to sweep off the cobwebs and mildew thats been growing on the page. Yes yes... Not blogged for a long time. =p

I'm at work waiting for time to pass before i can go. Got a BBQ to attend to later and i'm full of excitment. I miss BBQed chix wings and all the unhealthy oily greasy food. So much for the decision to stay healthy.
Met up with my bunch of siao char bohs (crazy girls) yesterday. Was Ames's 24th birthday. Since Dempsey was the IT and happening place to see and be seen in, we headed there for dinner. Made reservations at PS cafe. In attendance was, Eve, Joanne/Aimei, Geok yan/Dyanne, Amelia/Ames, Elina and Me. Digress... its wierd that peopla wana name themselves just to make yourself sound nicer. I am sooo not used to calling Aimei, Joanne when i have been calling her Aimei for the past ten years. WTH...
Back to topic. Dinner was ok. Had some creamy fish thing that made me totally nausaous halfway through the meal. Too creamy. *gag* But amelia's flamed prawn spag was damn good. Eve had ribs, geok had some chix spag, elina had veal tenderloin with was damn good too!! Desserts on the other hand was fantastic. The Choco pudding was ORGASMIC!! You will feel as if you just died and gone to chocolate heaven. Imagine this. A spongy dark chocolate sponge cake thingy sitting in a dish of hot chocolate sauce thats not too sweet, with a tinge of bitterness and a tang of brandy. Complete with some sour prunes and a frozen ball of vanilla ice cream. Damn.
Total damage, $362.00. Totally fitting the image of Dempsey huh. But we all had fun, loads of catching up and hysterical laughter.
These are the people that never fail to put a smile on my face.

Will be my birthday next. And my big ass darling is gona plan something for me. I wonder...
Been staying over at each other's places lately. Her mum's a good cook so i've been stuffing my face.

My huge ass + Her huge ass = COMPATIBLE!!


*grins*

- Fairy Games -

Heart of the Matter - India.Arie

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?


I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore


These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm


All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside


I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore


I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

- Fairy Games -